I really don't know what I'm going to blog about. But at least I have a place to organize my thoughts. A virtual diary of sorts, I s'pose one might say.

Maybe one day I can look back at this blog and say, "geeze, you were so stupid." I've gotten in trouble before on MySpace for blogging about issues I had at work. Those have hopefully been reconciled on the offenders' parts, however the event has left me scarred. I have built up emotional walls around myself and what transpired. Though I haven't forgotten, I still have had to move on. I have used it all as a growing and learning experience.

Where I am today has a lot to do with where I've been. To put it mildly, growing up in an abusive, co-dependent, miserable household has effected me much more severely than any person could truly realize. Even to this day I put up with the negative attitudes bestowed upon me by one of my parents and the emotional distance of another. No matter what I do or how wonderful I do it, it will never be good enough. I will never be good enough. Learning to get over the disappointment of being nothing to my parents has caused me to feel like I am invisible. The only means of expressing myself is now and always has been in writing. Whether it was on sheets of paper or a bound notebook or a MySpace blog, writing makes me feel better. Hopefully the anonymity of this blog will keep my personal information a secret. If anyone wants to read it, fine. But if you don't know who I am, you won't be able to criticise or judge me.

You may take what I say or what I've been through as a lesson and learn from my and others' mistakes. I think that's all that this blog is about. So thanks for reading it.